Topic: The Chit Chat Thread

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@Metonymy @Tjuz (hi by the way) @LtSarge @Teclo (hi also, and thank you, sorry I don't know you and I'm not trying to be rude, so thank you)

• Firstly sorry that any of you even had to reply, I only just saw all of this, someone grabbed me elsewhere and we talked about some things, they said to just put him on ignore so I did.

And I don't like using 'him', I do see Kyle as a person and respect his time on here, good for him. I don't know who built what thread, I just know some like this one do go quiet for days, longer, so I do try to spark-up conversation.

This word ChitChat is slang, it exists in English in some form, not everyone here has it as a first language. Some have already said they enjoy writing their walls of text. Good for them too, it's better than a Berlin wall or a Peace Wall, I live my life behind walls and like a prison wall I have all of the time in the world to read their walls of text, I appreciate their time and effort.

An opinion and freedom of speech are something I value more than gold, I have neither offline so I'm the last person to deny someone of theirs. But there's a fine line between an opinion and straight-up harassment, I'm not okay with that and neither should anyone else. I respect a sense of humor too, but again not when it involves harassment. It's not about gender for me either, it's two people and I believe in mutual respect, not mutual destruction, or drama, I have no time for either of those.

I believe in peace, I came to this site after my own world went headfirst into all our war, people lied to me and said it was for peace and to protect our way of life. I'm the last person who wants to see or be in an argument or an aggression. Multiple times I've asked Kyle to leave me alone and he didn't, I respect everyone equally, but I can't respect someone who caused real mental and emotional stress.

People like Tjuz had to drag me back here because of what went on here, no one stepped in, said a word, because it was another person's opinion. I was already one foot out the door, it took all night to convince me not to go, I had a thank you and goodbye post ready to go, I'm not here for that.

I'd already left once before because 'people like you are the problem', the person who said that didn't know me, nor I them but those words stuck and stung for months. Kyle's were no different, people are more than a couple of words or quite a lot of words and I'll continue to respect people on here regardless, I see people, not just words. No one is perfect, people here have told me they are lonely, have been through all kinds of things, I can't not see a person for a person. Nor can I not feel for them in some way, like I told LtSarge recently, it didn't matter that it was a stranger, it mattered that someone was going through something, somewhere, and I felt for them.

But this today? It's never going to happen again, other people don't need to be dragged into any of this. We all have lives to lead, limited time for the people and things we love. It took me eight-hours to write that last big post, all of it was true, I can't explain it but I can share it, I'll keep sharing, keep talking to people, keep spreading my wings until someone offline clips them or shoots me down. And if that happens I do have people/friends who will make a profile and let people know that I didn't just one day decide to vanish without a word, I don't do that to people either.

I'm going nowhere, I've never had a home before, not like this, I care about a lot of people on here, that's not going to stop either. I can't word the level of anxiety that comes with living your whole life away from the world and then one day seeing that bright light but wondering 'is this right, is this appropriate for their society', we don't just live in different are-codes, it's another planet. I can't apologize for that either, and frankly I'm starting to think that I don't need to.

Sorry again that you got dragged/tagged into any of this. Now I need to work on replying to that nice man with the strange head, faith is another topic that's utterly bias in my offline. That man took the time and effort to tell me about it on his terms, I'm about to do the same.

Fudge it I'll add this. Tjuz already knows. I spent most of the Summer on a boat with nothing but an ocean, someone on here told me we were going to war with Europe. I thought we'd tactically nuked England and Europe, I didn't care about 'oh no my thousands of books', I thought of the people on this site, that to me means something, thank literal God it didn't happen, but that doesn't change the fact that mentally and emotionally it did, so if it looked like my posting ramped up? that's why. I was over the moon to see that no more lives were lost to absolutely pointless aggression, hate and an inability to to just get along with other humans.

I see time as just as valuable, I know people have jobs, lives, but I know something most people don't and that's how short life is, I don't squander my time on this Earth and I'll never waste in pointless aggression here either , that's not who or what I am. If my posts are weird or strange? I've less than two-years experience with people approaching normality, I'm not going to apologize for that either, either pop me on ignore or have a proper discussion with me about it, I'll talk to anyone respectively if they know how to do the same thing in return.